Learning To Humble Yourself

    I first would like to thank God for my husband. A friend continues to minister that to my heart and I thank God for her as well. You know God continues to show me things about my family, and especially my dad, he also has ministered some things to me as well regarding my husband. I will tell you I was a rebellious teenager. I pretty much can tell you when that rebellion started and what was taking place in my life. I continue to thank God for my dad and absolutely wished I could have learned to humble myself more and listened. I encourage all you kids, humble yourself and listen to your dads! You may not like what they have to say, but it just might be God talking to you! And what you learn as a child in listening to your dad never stops when you get married!! I can look back on my life now and realize the things my dad did or made me do, or tried to get me to do was God in the man and God’s love for me. I hope to share that one day with my dad as well.
    After Anthony and I were married many things began to take place in our lives. I thought,” Oh wow, I am married how wonderful!” You know the Cinderella story. Not so! Many things caused problems some of those I have written or talked about before, but that rebellion was still there. I used to think, I went from my dad telling me what to do to now my husband telling me what to do. I had thought if you got married you just got to do what you wanted to do. And I guess you do if your husband doesn’t care about trying to obey God. If you have a husband that wants to obey God and makes every effort to do that, and you’re a woman, you will have to learn to humble yourself.
Anthony would often times instruct me on what to do in following God. I wasn’t leading in dance yet, but he would tell me to watch those leading dance in Plano. I continue to do this now without being told. He might say, you need to read what this person put on the website. Did I always just do this whole heartdly, no, I was rebellious. As we continued to come to the Tulsa meetings, God continued to pound on my hard heart. I use to set in those meetings and funky things would happen to me or my body. I would think what is happening to me. But as God began to change my heart, I began to try to listen more to what was being said. I have heard Kathy Mai share many times about thanking God for the heart he gave her. I can say that I now am at a place where I myself can thank God for the heart he gave me. I had a heart that could see if someone was doing something that was working, what could I do to get the same results. I played sports in school and this is what I related it to. You know if someone was doing something and getting some good results, and I’m wasn’t , well I would watch to see what they were doing so that I could change and get the same results. It works the same way with the Gospel. If you see people getting some good results and you’re not, something is not working, and you need to make a change. Like I said my husband would continually encourage me to listen and watch those women in Plano who were put in leadership of dance, etc. I read testimonies, watched and participated in dance at home, listened to the audios/videos, you name it, and still do! I didn’t realize at the time I was doing this, that God was cleaning up my heart. I remember one day as Doyle spoke about one of the women, he said this woman has 3 things, unselfishness, humility, and integrity. I thought, I don’t think I have any of those. I DID NOT set there and think, yeah me too. So now I had 3 women as examples before me. My point is I could see God working in these women’s lives, and one thing that kept getting spoken was humility! When they spoke, I did my best to look at my own life and ask myself, is that working for me, or am I doing that. I have continued to do this! Now there is another example, and you know what, it was recently said about her having humility. God has continually changed my heart and has gotten me to where I am walking, but I can say that over the last few years I have humbled myself with my husband, and humbled myself by listening to those who were walking in what they were speaking. One of them recently said if something is not flowing in their life they check out their own heart. You know what I do that now. A few weeks ago that happened. Some things were not going the way they needed to be going at school, and I remembered what was ministered. I checked out my OWN heart, humbled myself, and fixed the problem, you know what things began to work the way they needed to . I don’t care if you set there and don’t say a word out loud, but in your heart you’re thinking, “I already know that, or I can hear God,” (murmuring), then you are going to totally miss what is being said. God grants grace to the humble and resisteth the proud ALL DAY. I continue daily to humble myself every chance I get!
God Bless You,
Misty - December 29, 2009

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